31.12.09

A Happy Birthday!

What makes for a good birthday?

The way I see it, a good birthday is a proper holiday for the person who’s birthday it is. It’s a day when they can sit back and relax and be pampered! A proper holiday! (Can’t say the word holiday enough times.)

Although I would like to stick to this utopian dream every year and allow those around me to indulge me, and treat me supersized-supersweet, unfortunately I am not allowed such liberties! Why, you ask. Well, simply because my birthday is on the 31st of December, the day the whole world, and not just my immediate world is hopped up on sugar and excitement to party the night away with their “loved ones” into the New Year.

Now, I must surely have some loved ones who want to party the night away with me, you would say! Yes, you would be correct in saying that but the thing is … the thing is … what is the thing?

Well, the thing is complicated, there are multifarious issues involved on various levels, and it has taken me 26 years to figure the whole thing out and see the light … Of course, I don’t expect you to see my point of view or understand it in 10 minutes but here goes …

The thing is, my immediate loved ones do try and make the day special for me as per their convenience and rightfully so … they or my second-immediate loved ones have every right to spend new year’s eve the way they want to; to add to the pressure of planning a good new year’s eve party they also try and make my day a bit exciting, but that’s exactly where the problem lies … whatever they do on this day for me – is always second-hand! There’s always something else that they have to do and amidst it, manage time for me …

If they ask me whether or not there is something special that I would like on my birthday, my answer usually is ‘no, no, not at all!’ but I don’t really mean that. The honest truth is, just like anyone else, deep inside I do want them to do something special for me, I do want them to give up their plans for me, I do want them to spend the whole day hovering around me, making me smile, giggle, talk, do silly things … I don’t really care for the presents because honestly no one ever gets the presents right unless the person who the present is for has told them what to get … and that is what I do not like to do … I do not like to ask for things … I do not like to say ‘I want a chest for my room, I want a mirror for my bathroom, I want good stationery, I want a bunch of good films, I want to spend the whole day drinking, eating and making merry with my friends, I want to spend the whole day in the countryside’ … If I have to ask for it, then its not really fun is it, there is no surprise element, there is no welling up (oh my! I can’t believe you knew this is the book I wanted to read next, or the film I wanted to watch, or the cake I wanted to eat) …

But … asking people to give up their other plans entirely is asking for a bit much! Don’t worry, I’m aware of that … moreover do I do the same for them? I don’t think so … I just manage (most of the times) to make it to their birthday parties … but the thing is, all year round I try and do these tiny things … these tiny selfless acts of help/ goodwill etc. etc. in the hope that karma will round them up … and bring them back to me on my birthday … apparently (I realize that now) it doesn’t work like that, karma told me … because a) I am performing those ‘selfless acts’ for a selfish reason and b) they cannot come back to me on a specific day!!! I don’t understand why but they just can’t … Karma needs to work on its terms and conditions – they aren’t really consumer friendly, are they?

Anyway, four years ago I stumbled upon the perfect antidote to this dilemma … ‘running away from everyone I know’ … I hadn’t planned it, it just happened. In the winter of 2005 I was sent on a work trip and I was more than happy to go since we were going to a beautiful part of the country for a wildlife shoot schedule, my favourite thing to do, next only to writing …

On the 31st that year my adorable colleagues did their bit to make my day, by going through much to find a birthday cake (since all the cakes they came across were new year’s eve cakes, so they got ‘happy new year’ scrapped off one of the cakes and had ‘happy birthday’ written on it instead). It was a lovely cake indeed … but I remember I did have some issues with them later on, not wanting to go out at night with me in a random city full of rowdy high-on-testosterone-and-alcohol men on the streets …

But somewhere before or between that lovely cake and that disappointment of not going out at night … we went out to do some filming … And at some point, I think it was late afternoon, I found myself alone at the banks of the river Brahmaputra … and I found myself staring into the little whirlpools forming in the river … and I found myself staring into the setting sun … and I found myself in a completely and utterly tranquil state of being … I was fortunate enough to acknowledge that moment and realize what matters most … what makes a good day … what makes a good birthday …

The next year, I was fortunate enough to go to Kerala around my birthday … On the day of, my closest friend drove us around North Kerala … our mission – Beach Hopping! Although there were some things on that lovely day that didn’t go my way (remember my idea of a good birthday is that things always DO go the birthday person’s way!) there was a moment that did … a moment entirely mine and mine alone … a moment at one of the beaches with the sun setting, the sky all pinkish orange, the beach completely empty … and my heart at one with the voice of the ocean …

I guess what I am trying to say is that I realize now that the only way to enjoy my birthday (which is after all an important day for me) is to be at one with nature … even if for a moment, for just a moment …

This year I couldn’t have that … I am at home, in Delhi … I don’t know where to be ‘one with nature’ anywhere in this city being smothered by smog more and more each day … does that make me an unhappy person? No! I am all right … I’ve just come back from a long vacation and I am happy to spend my day reminiscing earlier happy birthdays and this holiday …

But next year I will need to get away … !!!
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10.12.09

a night about london town ...

So Pampelonne, France was absolutely wonderful as can be seen in the pictures in the previous post. One whole week of absolute and perfect tranquillity … but I didn’t do as much work as I should have done there … perhaps because I just had a week there … perhaps if I had more time … there are always conditions, and excuses but things go the way they do, or you choose for them to go … anyway more about that later perhaps …

From France I came to Leicester, UK … spent two more tranquil weeks after a couple of days of miserable journey through france and Switzerland (yeah!) … was in culinary heaven at me bua’s (aunt’s) after many many days of eating misery-inducing bland European food …

And then came to London … been here about 2 weeks and a few days minus a trip back to Leicester to recover from a tiny bout of cold …

Clearly haven’t written much at all since I left France … and yes, that fact does bother me. Its partly because I haven’t had easy wireless access all this time … but also because some part of me has been lost … yet again!

Although a part of my brain knows that the first step to writing is actually sitting down to write … so whether it’s the slacker in me that’s been keeping me away from my computer or something else … I really can’t tell …

But I can tell that I have been scribbling in my little moleskin diary that I picked up in Leicester … its beautiful and my new comfort thing besides my laptop and the scarf that I wear ‘all the time’ (read – even when I am in a stuffy bar, feeling supremely hot!)

So what does my diary say? It says a lot about how I’ve been trying to make up my mind about London and the UK in general … and how I can’t make up my mind … how I cannot tell whether or not or how much I like the city, the island …

I heard or read somewhere … ‘my first impression of London was that it’s a scary city’ … that’s when it hit me that it is … although I come from a big city in India, London’s intensity scares me … it’s big, grey, and daunting … its accepting, receptive and yet its not … its constantly moving at super speed and my mind and body run at a speed much slower than that of this city … despite all that I like it for my friends who live in it … its as if I have these comfort pillows marking the topography of this big bad bog … and these comfort pillows are making my stay here much warmer and fuzzier than it would have been, had I been here alone …

It was on the 7th of December that I was walking around London aimlessly … yet again! At about 3 pm I found myself outside the British Museum … I went in without really caring much for what was inside, I simply needed shelter from the rain … I did find shelter but I didn’t find any warmth … As I speedily browsed through Egyptian history and historical Mexican prints, I was beginning to feel restless … I don’t think I can enjoy history without company … think Iks is perfect company for something like that, think she makes history fun with her bizarre, introspective renditions …

Very soon I was out of the museum … After a longish stint at Costa’s and a diary entry complimented by an lemon and orange muffin and a black coffee … I started walking around mindlessly again … This time I at least knew where I was … I walked through Covent Garden, Cambridge Square, Leicester Square, and a bit of China Town … came across some interesting book shops (occult books, art books, second-hand books etc. etc.) … I didn’t buy any … I was in one of those ‘I will go back to each of these book stores’ mode … I don’t really know if I will …

Then I walked to the Leicester Square Underground station … I was headed to Chalk Farm, to a concert at a bar across the Chalk Farm Station … friends of friends of friends were playing … and friends were joining me …

I was the first one to reach the bar, its called ‘the enterprise’ … I walked in after finishing my dinner whilst walking around Chalk Farm … dinner was mustard and ham sandwiches and a chocolate … feels like chocolates are cheap here … a mars bar costs 99 p and you only have to hand over one coin to the man across the counter … but that one coin back home converts into 78 – 79 rupees … you can get a super-yum chicken kaathi roll, and a soft drink for the price of that mars bar … Don’t worry dear friend, I have stopped converting or else I wouldn’t be able to eat peacefully here … but there are moments when you just can’t help it …

Into the bar, buy myself a pint of Carlsberg, and climb up to the smaller first floor area where the concert is … concert seems too big a word for the small venue … I walk in and a local (Camden, London) version of John Mayer is singing a song called ‘Stranger’ … he’s got soul … his guitar, his voice reeks of soft emotions … his eyes seek ‘Strangers’ in the audience whilst he sings his song … beautiful lyrics string his chorus into a perfectly radiant, sweet smelling chorus … I later ask him his name … He says ‘I’m Jonathan Whiskerd’, jots down my email address on his blackberry and emails me his myspace link … Sigh!

Next up is a band with a very sweet girl as the lead singer … she sings songs about love, boys, break-ups, getting over boys, getting into (no pun intended) boys … she has a sweet husky voice but not enough to tug at my heart strings (my apologies) … she has a back up vocalist and this girl’s voice is strong and slightly more enticing … I am distracted by her voice every time she sings a line or two …

Enter Shabani – a friend from Delhi. She and I worked together on a Londonese project shot in India for Channel 4 … We’ve never met socially in Delhi … but we are doing so now, considering we are in a foreign city at the same time … its brought us close and we realize we have a lot more in common than we would have expected … Shabani is a very intriguing person, she is her own person and she has gumption … you should meet her!

She is filming the band that is next up as she knows them through a friend … the band is made up of two extremely beautiful (cute is too small a word for these boys) boys from Verona … being in London is their first big city experience … and they exude the fact in the presence which seems to be completely unblemished and unpolluted by a big city environment … their drummer isn’t their regular drummer and is a big tight whilst playing … which makes his actual playing sort of loose … he is giving it his all nonetheless … and he looks like Hari Kunzru (the writer) which makes him interesting enough … whenever I or Shabani or her friend Surbhi (an artist) can take our eyes off the Verona boys that is … the lead singer and guitarist has such refreshing pleasance in his being and playing that I feel awake … and strangely refreshed … the bass player exudes an amazing sense of youthful playfulness … I am clearly talking about their looks more than their music … their music is intriguing … they are trying to do interesting non-run-of-the-mill arrangements but they do have scope for more … something more …

Next up is a very sweet band made up of 4 very sweet boys …



they sing really sweet and soulful songs … each of their songs is different from the previous one … they know their music … they use a big acoustic bass … and the singer sings like a wise man, beyond his years … their music makes me want to close my eyes and let it touch my soul … and it does – right when he leaves the stage and along with the bass player sits amongst us as we circle around them, starts playing a Spanish guitar and singing a song about … ‘you’ve been waiting for me to bring you back home’ … or so I would like to remember … I would like to remember that that was the first line of the song … I would like to remember him singing that line forever … even when I am home and I am sitting with my eyes closed thinking of this night when I closed my eyes in a bar in London … I would like that line to be with me, to stay with me …

Next up is a band that plays some really funky music, and makes every one stand up and jump around, and play, and dance, and shake a leg to their music … they’re a tight band, they will be popular, they are popular … they intrigue and connect and entertain … but I will be honest and will say that it’s a short lived high … the thing that will remain with me though will be the girl lead saying at the end of one song ‘did you see that? Did you see the microphone stand trying to attack me?’ …

Its 11. The bar shuts. We go outside and drink another beer with Dara, the bassist of a now defunct band called ‘Envision’ from New Delhi … a band everyone loved when they were around … a band that everyone loves even now I think …



Dave, Surbhi, Shabani, Dara ...


There’s Surbhi too – Shabani’s closest friend from college and a very, very warm person and an artist which makes me fall in love with her instantly … I am a bit of a fickle wh*** in that regard … I don’t understand art (I’m on stage 1) but I respect it and therefore respect any artist … think they dig deeper and know more about the secrets of the universe than writers do : )
… and of course there’s Dave – my London mentor … Dave is (refreshingly) one person from London who actually knows the city really well … he is a blessing to be around for anyone who is looking to do the non-touristy beat … and I wish I’d listen to him more often, move out of my comfort zones and experience the city … but alas! If only life was that simple …

As we stand outside the bar and talk about the city, the accents, the tea, Delhi, the Delhi music scene, Envision, another band that Dara played for called Orange Street, the music that night, the music in New Delhi, concerts, plays, travelling, and on and on … I am still somewhere else … I come back when we talk about music back home, not fully but slightly …

Dave leaves, so does Surbhi … and we go for another drink somewhere nearby … I’m not afraid about missing the last train … its midnight and I have missed the last train … I’m staying with Shabani in her London apartment for the night … I like how easily I’ve taken that decision here … I don’t have to call my parents and go through a tiresome discussion with them about staying out for the night … about my safety, about this, that, and the other … I feel light and a little lively …

Dara talks about London and explains the concept of child benefits etc. etc. Shabani and I almost want to have children that very night and reap benefits … best mothers for benefits … : P … bad joke, I know … I usually wouldn’t make jokes about motherhood … perhaps you can forgive this one instance …

At some point we take a taxi back home … after another session of chit-chat we are off to sleep … the next morning we wake up … some more chit chat and we are off to our individual destinations … She walks to her office … and I walk to the train station with her, which is near her office … I say goodbye to her, we’re meeting again soon … I’m extremely grateful to her for being such a lovely host but she goes on to thank me for joining her … I cannot believe this girl … : )

I am now on my own … travelling from North London to South London to go back to my cousin’s {deepidi’s = Deepty (her name) + didi (meaning sister)} apartment to take a shower and get into some clean, non-stinky clothes … (I’m growing old and intractable, and so are my issues with being stinky : ) To get to my cousin’s apartment in South London I have to take an overground train, then an underground train and then again an overground train, and then walk to her apartment … the walk takes about 20 minutes if you maintain a constant decent pace, you go slow and thou shalt take almost 30 … the train journey takes an hour fifteen minutes if your timing is right and there’s no waiting involved … it’s a bit annoying the fact that my friends live so far away from my cousin’s … shouldn’t be like that (a take off on ‘you shouldn’t be here’ ;) - dips! Respect maan!)

On my journey back I start listening to ‘Higher Speed’ by Coldplay and ‘Wild Horses’ – the Alicia Keys and Adam Levine version … both these songs on repeat start permeating into my blood stream … taking me into another dimension that is liberally spiked with unsettling yet deeply attractive emotions … a dimension where I can feel powerful things without moving a muscle … almost feels like I am not breathing anymore … and I am floating in this train almost catching up with its speed at some point … I feel like I belong … in this overground train the wilderness around transports me back to the wilderness of the forest where I was listening to these very songs on repeat exactly four years ago … where I was feeling these emotions that I am now feeling again, in this strange land full of strange isolated people … where I felt like I belonged, I felt earthed, grounded, rooted and yet not … where I felt at home … where I felt like I was my own person and I didn’t need anyone or anything to make me whole … where life was bliss, where I was blessed … where nothing else mattered …

The train stops … I must get out and start walking … but I am happy to walk … this moment cannot last forever … I have to move my muscles, my body, and get out of my seat … I must … but why do I still feel like I am floating … I am walking now …

Childhood living is easy to do
The things you wanted I bought them for you
Graceless lady you know who I am
You know I can't let you slide through my hands
Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Wild, wild horses, couldn't drag me away


In my heart …somewhere deep inside … I am thanking everyone for last night … I don’t know how, I don’t know why … but clearly last night has affected me … it will stay with me …

I think I am beginning to learn to use everything I experience in my writing … perhaps that’s why I want to thank everyone … or it could just be something as simple as nostalgia … how the music last night reminded me of the time when I was actively involved with music … nostalgia is beautiful, its invigorating, enlivening … sometimes its my everything …

thank you everyone for that night …

Can anybody fly this thing?
Before my head explodes.
Or my head starts to ring.
We've been living life inside a bubble.
We've been living life inside a bubble.
.
Confidence in you,
Is confidence in me?
Is confidence in high speed?

Can anybody stop this thing?
Before my head explodes.
Or my head starts to ring.
We've been living life inside a bubble.
We've been living life inside a bubble.

Confidence in you.
Is confidence in me
Is confidence in high speed
Is confidence in a higher speed …
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20.11.09

a good week ...



AIR Le Parc
Rob Annema and Els Zoon
14 Allee des Marronniers
81190 Pampelonne
France
Tel: +33 5 63 764409
Email: Rob of Els
Internet: www.az-leparc.com




room number 3. mine for a week.


work space


at work



mi vecina - fellow resident, artist anelys wolf ...
have a look at her work at animaleshumanos.blogspot.com


patio


take a look at the garden ...






in the summer time, when the weather is fine, we sit here to have lunch all the time ...


view from the outside ...



another entrance to the le parc parc ...


another seating area at the le parc parc ...




mushroom pie anyone?


structured tree ...


cat in residence - at work


chicken in residence at work ...


house views


walk around the house ...


down the hiking trail ...


the river that runs by ...


drops of pampelonne everywhere ...



when it pours ...




about town ....


back at your door ...


back at the house ...
the hallway ...


the other workspace ...


guest kitchen ...


as night falls ...


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shruti.cristina.barcelona - parte dos

The free flamenco concert by beautiful people turns out to be a good omen as my day becomes sated with many, many more free concerts …

However, right before that, I am still in food hell … Finally find a chicken-only Paella and decide to go all out and try it a second time even though the serving seems rather large. Err! Ain’t got the chicken one, we only have mixta with piscada, gambaaas … noooooooooo no no mixta. I’ll have a Mexican wrap please … First bite into it and I am thinking, serves me right for ordering a Mexican wrap at a Spanish bar. Pffff! Wash it down con some Coke Zero and some decent Spanish desert.

Coke Zero … Varun told me the story … Apparently they came out with some name for Diet/Light Coke which didn’t go down very well with the men, the ladies liked it just fine … so in order to maximize their market Coke came up with Coke Zero … I like ;)

Hop on, hop off the Metro … and we are on our way to Park Güell …

Now this is a park Gaudi built “The park was originally part of a commercially unsuccessful housing site, the idea of Count Eusebi Güell, whom the park was named after. It was inspired by the English garden city movement; hence the original English name Park (in the Catalan language spoken in Catalonia where Barcelona is located, the word for "Park" is "Parc", and the name of the place is "Parc Güell" in its origin language).”* … we are feeling all the love for Gaudi so we walk walk walk … but where is the park … its coming, its coming …eee … stop,
A la derecha …

Turn left and behold, an escalator. Whaaaattt? I did not sign up for that. Check all the signs … everything points and says Park Güell is up the escalator. Ohkie then! We climb, another escalator, ok, and another, and another, and then a slope (ohh I have to walk now? The escalators were doing just fine), and another escalator, and another … by this time all this seems like a very, very evil joke …

But eventually we make it to the park … and its worth the walk … you can see Barca from here, can even see the la sagrada familia … top view ;) … nice, nice we likes …



but hey what’s that we hear? Why it’s exotic music … we follow the direction where the sound of music is coming from … we walk some and we see a whole band … playing rumba and something else, it’s a bit of a mix and the band calls the music ‘originaaaaaaaaalllll’ … they are a very fun band called ‘el tumbao de juana’ … they entertain their audience to the T and it is quite an audience they have at the top hill of the park ... dancing, singing along, and clapping … we have a very good time with the band … the last song the band plays is a song for ‘travellers’ … oh we mucho mucho gusto! : )


we are sad to walk away from a band full of not-so-clean but very hot, and fun Spaniards … next up is yet another band … it’s a guitar trio … que bueno yet again … this time we sit, and relax, and let the guitar playing serenade us … we walk away again and just down the stairs, at the main and actual entrance to the park a man is playing an instrument we have never heard or seen before … it’s a metal plate that makes different sounds when one hits different spots on it … we like it very much indeed, the sound is beautiful … walk out and there is another trio playing the didgeridoo and a couple of other instruments … by this time we have lost the energy to keep track of all the instruments and the music … if we were a music collector we would have paid more attention … we would like to be a music collector but there is no space left on the memory card of our camera by this time …

so we walk away from the park feeling very, very musically and architecturally enriched …

we get back to our hostel … we rest a little …

at about 7 I begin to feel that my body isn’t feeling McDonalds heavy … so I begin to think about food … by now I’m desperately missing Indian food … I had thought that I’d be meeting Varun today as well … but he keeps busy at college until 8 pm on some days … yes you heard that right … that boy works hard at Uni …

So, I decide that I should go out on my own and look for some Indian if I can or else settle for some Tapas which I haven’t had yet… or so I think (later realize that I have actually had them)

A block away I see a shop that reads Omar something and I decide to give it a shot … inside I see the shawarma set up so I get the ‘hit the jackpot’ feeling again … I go to the counter and ask for a shawarma roll …

The balding man behind the counter figures that I’m Indian … and he tries his luck with ‘if you talk to me in Punjabi then I will give you a good shawarma roll but if you talk to me in English or Spanish it will be an ok one’ of course he says all this in Punjabi …

I’m a bit taken aback but I start talking to him in Punjabi. He gives me a roll, I take a bite and in my head I’m going, dude I thought you were giving me a ‘good roll’ because I AM talking to you in Punjabi.

Anywho having made the bad decision to have the roll at the restaurant and not have it packed, I listen to the bugger yap away about how nice it is to meet people from back home yada yada yada … all this time I’m literally trying to inhale the roll so I can scram from the place because by now the guy is beginning to seem creepy … but wait, there’s more …

I’m only halfway through the damn thing and he asks me how long I’m staying for etc. Since I’m only in Barca for one more day I safely say ‘Oh! I’m only here tomorrow, day after I leave …’
‘Why don’t you have a meal here tomorrow as well’ he pounces on the opportunity.
‘I don’t know’ I say, ‘I have a friend who lives here and I am going to go see him before I leave so it won’t be possible but thank you’
‘Well that’s dinner right, what about lunch’ he pounces again.
‘Erm, I will be looking around the city so I will eat wherever I am’. Since the restaurant is in Sants which doesn’t really have any tourist spots nearby I’m guessing he will understand that it isn’t possible.

But errrrrr wrong again. He doesn’t understand and insists and insists and insists.

By this time I’m very uncomfortable and since there is only one other customer at the restaurant … who erm is leaving now? Why? … I begin to get very restless … I somehow wash down the rest of the roll superspeedily and get up to leave …

And baldy starts off again about how nice it is to talk to someone in his own language and how it can get really lonely here, so far away from home, and ‘you must, must, must have lunch with me tomorrow and I won’t take no for an answer’ …

Now I am realllly uncomfortable. I go into protective mode and say ‘ok well, I will see you for lunch for a short bit, how about that’ … in my head I am making a mental image of him so I can get a restraining order against him …

‘Well what time will you come?’ he says.
‘Umm how about 2’ I say unflinchingly and convincingly.
‘Sounds great! When you come, just stand by the door and wait for me for a couple of minutes. Before we sit down for lunch, I will take you for a ride on my bike!’ he grins.
‘Oh yeah? Which bike do you own?’ I ask instinctively.
He points to a baby mopet parked outside the door and says ‘well it’s a small one’ feeling as small as the mopet I’m guessing.
‘I own two cars as well though. And I own this shop. And I send money home, to my parents every month’ he says ‘all that’s missing is some good company here’.

Alarm bells are ringing in my head so I say ‘well see you’ and jog out of the restaurant, and run back to my hostel, laughing all the way …

This was at about 7:30 pm

At 10 Varun calls and I go meet him at Barrio Gothica, taking the metro to Liceu estacion where he is supposed to meet me … laughing all the way … I’m still laughing when I meet him … and tell him about the incident. Its been quite an interesting evening, and he agrees …

We walk through some charming streets and make it to a pub where many 1st year and 2nd year students from his University are meeting for what’s called a ‘bao’ or ‘bar’, can’t remember … but they basically all get together for drinks …

When we walk into the place, Lionel and Daniel from the previous night are already there, along with some new people … forgive me new people, you were far too many for me to remember all the names … but I do remember Alec, Jonathan, Fabio, and sweet guy from Cochin … and we spot AJ and Elena, the girls from the previous night as well at some point …

After some nice MBA type mingling, we step out as the pub becomes beyond stuffy and spend the last 45 minutes outside, in the cool Barca night breeze … after which we call it a night, rather early, at about 2 : )

Back at the dorm, it’s the same scene … when I walk in everyone moves … spewing curses under their breath …

The next morning I wake up very late for some reason and miss breakfast at the hostel … not that I missed much …

Oh and the morning before when I woke up, around 9 … and stepped into the common girl’s bathroom, what do I see? I see a 14 year old dressed as a hooker … she is wearing a very, very mini skirt, some panty hose, a gunjee that is torn in various places, so she’s basically wearing the remains of a gunjee revealing an evocative bustier, the spots where the gunjee is torn are being put together with some rather large safety pins … of course the make-up is very noir, and the hair is big, and the boots are high … 9 a.m., teenager, dressed as a hooker … i begin to wonder how much I had to drink the night before, I know I didn’t drink too much … how is this happening … anyway I brush my teeth and make it to breakfast and the girl follows … soon after, a couple of more people dressed as inappropriately as her early in the morning walk in as well … and slowly it begins to make sense … Halloween is around the corner …. Ohhhhhhhhhhh all right, then its ok. But, still. Why are they doing this at like 9 a.m. Shouldn’t they go out in the evening or something … heck, I couldn’t be bothered.

This morning it’s the same thing … I walk into the girl’s room and there 5 more girls besides the teenager from the previous morning … I close my eyes!

After the morning’s delightful sights I need some soulful escape … so I head seawards …



As I walk towards the beach something in me begins to calm down so magically and quickly, as if I am home … I almost never feel this, anywhere … the sun melts away the layers of alertness that I wear since I am travelling alone … its warmth smoothes over the lines of smug worry that mark my face … and I sit down on one of the wooden decks to watch the fish make merry in the green-blue Barcelona waters …



by now I begin to feel like I’m living one of those cranked up shots wherein the protagonist is in slow motion whilst everyone and everything around her is in fast forward … Oh! What a feeling …

A fellow traveller comes and sits next to me, too close for comfort but it doesn’t bother me … with Marc Streitenfield playing some good old ‘A good year’ symphonies in my ears, I’m impervious …

And I sit there, at the deck for the longest time, not feeling hungry, or thirsty, or lonely, or anything … but peaceful and calm as a golden sun-bathed brook …

After about an hour or so which seemed like only a moment in time, I walk towards the bridge … still in that place in my mind, still impervious … the music playing in my ears isn’t too loud but I cannot hear a thing besides the music, the gentle sound of the ocean in my heart and the creaking of the film roll in my eyes … it’s a wonderful place to be …

At some point though I’m shaken into coming back … a man with his aggressive histrionics is trying to tell me something … I look around and I am the only one on this part of the bridge. The other people are cordoned off by two mini barricades on the two ends of the bridge … I look back towards the man and now realize that he is asking me to ‘move it’ … I hasten towards the nearer end of the wooden bridge and soon as I do that … the bridge splits open, giving way to a sailboat to pass through to the waterfront, which has been waiting for the bridge to do so … after the sailboat passes through into the ‘water parking lot’ ; ), the bridge closes up again, as if nothing ever happened … in my head I’m thinking ‘hmm! That’s one new thing I learnt today’ : P

After that it’s back to far, far away as I take a rather long walk, hand-in-hand with the Barcelona waters … and I feel … something beyond words …



After some time I find myself at an eatery at the beach … I order a yummy salad, herbed chicken, fries, tomatoes and cheese combo con beer … and oh! Yeah … we’re feeling good food-wise as well …

The need to continue to savour what I’ve just been through is so overpowering that I decide not to see anything else that afternoon and just be … so I take the metro back to the hostel and just lie in my bed, thinking, and wondering, and being … ‘need to be with myself and centre, clarity, peace, serenity … I hope you know, I hope you know, that this has nothing to do with you …’


In the evening I head out again in the search of that essence of Barcelona … after doing a round of laundry at the hostel of course … I’m leaving Barca tomorrow, I don’t know if I can do laundry in France …

I haven’t seen the Picasso museum … I should’ve, I wanted to … but now I don’t have the time … I need to walk my favourite part of the city one last time … So there I am lost and found once again in the cobbled tiny streets of the quarters … in and out of plazas … into lonely patches, and some not so lonely ones, some dodgy ones and some not so much … its wonderful, I’m saying goodbye to another friend, another new friend, another friend for a lifetime …

At some point I do take out my ginormous map of the city and realize that I am somewhere close to the museum … If I ask someone for help with directions I might just make it, its only 6 … but I cannot ask anyone, I’m not in that space … I just walk round and round, not understanding my map, hoping that I do …

Soon my left foot begins to hurt and my stomach finds a solution – find a place to eat and rest a bit …

I look for tapas … tapas, tapas everywhere … the choice is varied. Ideally I want to eat at an authentic looking taverna on a clandestine, dodgy road … and even though I see many, I soon find myself back at Ramblas … and oh! Here’s another restaurant and let’s just go in now …

I try my f***-all Spanish (I’ve realized that now) and the waiter sees through it and asks me politely ‘What would you like?’ … he’s uncannily polite, almost familiar … I ask him to give me a few minutes and scan the place … well of course, it’s being run by a bunch of Indians … A very nice one from behind the cash counter hollers at me and says ‘You HAVE to try our Sangria, it’s the best around here, ask anyone’ …

I smile at him, thanking him for the tip, and lying ‘Perhaps another day, I don’t feel like it right now’ … I have no idea why I said that, considering I’m leaving tomorrow … I enjoy white lies a lot … Soon I order some decent choice of tapas, and they turn out to be quite all right actually …

But at some point I can hear hushed voices behind the counters saying something in Punjabi … at this point I can’t understand what they’re saying … but soon I figure out … as the polite waiter goes to the people behind the counter and says ‘Sharam karo, bhehena wargi hai’ … (Shame on you, she’s like our sister) … he’s saying that because he knows that I am from India …

The nice man who had talked to me about the Sangria and who’s not part of the ‘shameful’ conversation at some point asks me where I am from …
‘I’m from India’ I say, ‘New Delhi. Where are you from?’
‘From Punjab. What are you doing here?’
‘I’m just travelling around’ I say.
‘Where do you stay now, UK?’
‘No, I’m from India’ I repeat.
‘But you stay in the UK?’
‘No I stay in India … just here on holiday’ … I assure him, befuddling the migrant in him who cannot understand how people from New Delhi can reach a standard of living that allows them to travel to Europe for leisure … Its beyond him and I don’t blame him for that … If only he came back to India and saw how things have changed in the last decade …

After that the boys behind the counter chat about me a bit more … a girl their age from India must feel like gold-rush in a foreign land full of foreign women they don’t understand … poor men! They are still talking in Punjabi about me, thinking I am Indian but don’t speak Hindi or Punjabi … Sangria man soon tells them in Spanish that I do understand Hindi/Punjabi and that I actually live in India and am here on holiday … the boys break off the party and one of them who is Pakistani tries to chat me up … but I am a closed book that evening … I’m in another place where I have no time, space, or slack to entertain a lonesome migrant …

I quickly finish my dinner, thank the polite waiter and Sangria man and leave … I text Varun and ask him the address for the place he had mentioned last night where I can catch a Flamenco performance for about 7 Euros … I also tell him that we could meet for a goodbye drink after the concert … he says we could but I can tell that he is beyond tired … Au revoir Varoon, take good care of yourself …

… I cannot believe that I don’t remember the name of the bar where I went for the concert but it was somewhere on Plaza Real, it costs about 7 Euros for ticket to a half hour concert and one has to book about an hour or a half hour before the show and then stand in a not so long queue to get in … the wise thing to do is to buy a ticket an hour in advance, go for a quick beer, and then queue up about 20 minutes before the show so you can get a decent seat … and believe you me, once you’re in ‘it really, really is worth it!’ … It’s a highly commercialized act wherein they give you a compact dose, a quick high and off you go but … for 7 Euros, I’m all for it.



Anywho after that, it’s a quite walk back to the hostel, a quite half an hour of packing, and zzz.

The next morning its back to lugging duties and … this time … we’re taking a 6 hour bus ride to France … Looking forward to it. In the bus I find an empty seat and no one comes and takes the seat next to me … I’m more than happy with that! Having carried the luggage from the hostel to the bus station, which was a 10 minute walk, I go off to sleep as soon as my behind comes in contact with the coach seat!

A little later I am woken up by the sweeeeeetteeessst man and he is asking me ‘Is this seat taken?’ in Spanish … I say not at all ... and then pinch myself. : ) No I am not dreaming!


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5.11.09

mariposa libre en barcelona

When I told my friends that I was going to Barcelona, many reacted with absolute, pure passion … Wow! You lucky dog! Stupid Cow! You must go to Parc Güell! Must have monster steaks which are a Catalan speciality! Why do you get to go! Etc. etc. etc. You get the picture!

All this got my really curious about the city. My first evening in Barcelona when I didn’t step out of my hostel, literally, I got plenty of messages telling me I must visit the football stadium. Now, all I know about football is that really hot men play it on Television, they are all after “one ball”, and that really hot men play the game! Did I already say the last one? Never mind. Doesn’t hurt to make a point. Anywho! I’ve seen a few films about football … I like films about sports in general … I don’t really watch any sport otherwise … other than Tennis of course, when Rafa is playing that is … for a Rafa game I almost feel like if its an important game and I am not watching it on me telly, he will feel really … what’s the word … Lonely! Yeah!

Coming back to football and Camp Nou! So, my first morning I decide to visit the stadium; apparently its like 20 minutes walking from the hostel. En route I’m taking pictures, walking around, la la la …
I make it to one of the gates and ‘it looks empty’ and I am thinking wow, is it just me or are there no other football fans like me here :P... I go to the man at the gate and say ‘tourismo’ and he instantly sees through me and says ‘gate no. 9, all the way around’ … ‘Erm Ok!’

Whoever said it’s a 20 minute walk should like “&£^£$£*&*%^$£%$£ do something to themselves … its been more than 20 minutes and now I have to walk all the way around the stadium … it better be worth it really, my back is still hurting from the sweet luggage walk yesterday …

Hah! Finally reach gate no. 9. See some action there, lots of people, lots of talking, a family playing football … watch it *^$&%£^%* … I see a sign that says Museum and I am thinking what? Who gives a damn about a football museum. I am just here to see the stadium, how big it is, take a couple of pictures … show them to boys back home. I am thinking all this and as I turn around I see a huge queue has formed right behind me within a matter of seconds … Oh boy! Well, I’ve come so far …

Wait for about 20 more minutes in the queue … its my turn and I am asking the man behind the counter ‘I OnLy wAnt To sEE tHe sTaDiuM !!’ and he looks at me as if I’m a fly and he is a fly-squatter, literally. Dude! If you’re sick of your job, quit! That’s when he says it … he says the forbidden words … and the forbidden words are anything above ‘12 euros’ … and he says ‘17 euros’ … I want to use so many curse words at this point that its not even funny. It would be ok if I was spending this amount to go for a concert … but a football stadium? Sigh but am here so let me just … Sigh!

I go inside the stadium and start clicking pictures with such ferociousness that people kind of steer clear of me.



Anyway … it's a big stadium. That’s pretty much about it. In the museum, they have pictures and stuff about the history of the club. All right! More pictures. I’m going to get my money’s worth dude!

I gladly walk out of the museum as soon as I am done and head to the food counters … I read the word ‘frankfurter’ and my eyes do the ‘hit the jackpot’ on a slot machine drill and I can hear ‘kching’ somewhere in the background …

‘Not so quick my dear’, says my frankfurter when it arrives on my plate … why? Why? You ask … and I say … because my dear frankfurter is made up of a pequeño baguette … the hard European stuff … and inside the baguette is a measly, skinny sausage … and to the right hand side of the cash counter are two menacing dispensers – one for tomato ketchup and one for mustard sauce. Sigh! Still relying on the French fries by the by!

After this disastrous (foodwise) morning, I go back to my hostel and rest my poor back a little bit …

At around 4 I set out, to head to the infamous barrio gothica or gothic quarters …

My first trip in the Barca Metro … I’ve become quite a pro at it by now by the way … You just need one day to figure out the metro system in a European country … Once you do that you’re sorted because the systems are usually pretty efficient and once you’re tuned into that system … you start walking fast, running even to catch the metro much like a local … you don’t do the touristy slow walk thinking, looking at every possible sign, not understanding it, not knowing where to go … the whole metro ride deal becomes piece of cake … la la la

Now, in Barca I can see that my hostel is not walking distance from all the touristy spots … it actually could be if you’re big on walking because Barca is actually a very small city … but if you are about 5 metro stations away from your destination, just take the damn metro … so I go and buy this sencilla billete or some such thing which basically gives you about 10 rides for about 7,40 euros, whereas a single ride is about 1,35 euros … so the sensible ticket is a sensible option indeed … and I did use my ticket fully and satisfactorily … : )

I step off the metro at a station called Catalunya and when I step out … phew! This part of Barca looks very different from the area called Sants where my hostel is … The first thing I see is this wild market … the land of surplus … fruits, meat, chocolates, candies, spices, chillies, chilli peppers, mushrooms, everything in hoards … it’s a sight but a little too strong for me …



A few pictures later I am out of the market and start looking at the buildings … every building, every balcony is beautiful to my untrained eyes …

And this is when I truly start feeling something … the song Barcelona starts playing in my head automatically, on repeat …

Barcelona te esta's equivocando no puedes seguir ignorando
que el mundo sea otra cosa y volar como mariposa.

Soon I lose myself in the streets of the Gothic quarters, I go in and out, out and in … clicking pictures all through … of balconies, street lamps, streets, shops, statues, some palace under restoration …

At some point the body seeks rest but the mind keeps making it go on and on for soon it will be dark and then it will be quite difficult to take pictures with my camera … at some point the body wins … a soda pop (very difficult to find in the land where beer flows eternal) and some crisps … junk, junk, I love junk … A not so bad looking man laughs at me, literally, blatantly because I’m ordering soda pop when everyone else at the taverna is 3 beers down and he is ordering pitchers … $%^$&%£^$%&£$ … Its only 6 you know, its not a crime to order soda pop!

Gobble Gobble and out you go!

Walk around some more … beautiful, beautiful Barcelona … by this time I’m feeling it … what Sol meant to me in Madrid is what the streets of barrio gothica mean to me in Barca … … … y volar como mariposa. La la la la la …

Oh and back on the main street again and oh! My god! I almost have tears in my eyes. I’ve reached a McDonalds outlet.

The devil and the angel fight an ugly battle and whilst I wait for them to finish I pass by the store at least three times, almost entering and then retracting my steps. Finally the devil wins and tells me ‘hey you’ve been in food hell for 5 days now, go for it, and indulge in some toxicology tan tad dan dan, tu un, the burger is only going to sit around in your stomach for about 2 days and the fries for about 5 … Sigh! Un (some Spanish name) burger for me please!

I superspeedily eat a superburger and step out of McDonalds … feeling all right!

7 o’ clock, tring tring … don’t hear it. Don’t actually remember that I’m carrying a phone these days.

8 o’ clock – look at the phone and hey Varun called. Call him back and ‘hello! Hello’ he has a plan.
He has a plan, he has a plan,
And we’re not going to go eat flan … (like the beginning of one of the songs from my musical O_O?)

Well, the plan is to meet at a Mexican place (I can hear my heart crashing into smithereens when I hear the words ‘it’s a good place for Mexican food’) … serves you right for listening to the devil. 9 o’ clock at the Mexican place then …

8:30 we take the metro to where the Mexican place is (we = me and the McDonalds shit in my stomach) … 2 minutes to 9 we are at the Mexican place called ‘Bar Panchito’ (I think) at Aribao street (I think) …

A very warm welcome by the hostess, she loves Indians and 2 minutes later, precisely at 9, enter Varun con Gurvir … its so good to see a face from back home … a face we haven’t seen in quiiittteee some time … exchanges, what brings you to Barcelona, what have you been up to, what’s new, what’s next …
And the others arrive.



A J is from Turkey (sweet girl, not in the picture)
Elena is from Russia (sweet girl, not in the picture)
Lionel is from France (first from left)
Neel is from Mumbai, India (second from left)
Daniel is from USA (third from left)
Varun (first from right)
Gurvir is from Mumbai, India (second from right)

After Bar Panchito the party moves to ‘the philharmonic’ because it’s only 11 and no club is going to even be open right now, they’d probably open at like 12:30 … plus we were out till about 7 this morning and are a bit tired … you should’ve been there yesterday :D

Nice bunch of students, all studying their MBA’s at various universities, some of them on exchange here from other universities … some like Varun study here at the ESA in Barcelona (think that’s the name he said repeatedly …ESA)

Anyway Varun is a very, very good host … and he is a traveller at heart so he has lots of stories and insights and is fun to be around … his friends are a bunch of funny MBA’s, the sorts I haven’t met before and have interesting business ideas …

The evening continues till about 3 am (creating history here – in my world) and towards the end we are all teaching each other cuss words in each other’s languages … Lionel takes the cake by learning ‘a lot’ of hindi ones … I learnt one French one which I cannot remember now, it was very difficult … fuis de puit or something to that effect … don’t know …

At 3:30 when I open the creaky door of my dorm to get into bed, every bed is occupied … and everyone moves. I know they will be going back to sleep and in their dreams will be doing some very nasty things to my body … but hey c’est la vie …

Goonight young night … the next day I find out that after finding me a cab home the boys went out drinking again. Phew! Not my cup of tea :P

La Sagrada Familia it is the next morning. Since I am a pretty crummy traveller as far as research is concerned I don’t know that the temple is under ‘construction’ still … I think its under restoration and I sing to myself ‘well there’s another 11 euros not so well spent’ … later that night Varun tells me that its still being constructed … but the engineers today are finding it so difficult to follow Gaudi’s principles and techniques because well they were simply magnifique … and the construction will end in the first third of the 21st century … holy guacamole … I step inside and I hear some stuff, and I read some stuff … and I see how the design elements are taken from nature and by the time I step out … my head is going ‘Gaudi is god, Gaudi is god’ …



So I go to the museum store and buy the first and the only present for myself from Spain – the cheapest ring based on design elements from the temple … to remind myself, that I was here, and I saw it, with my own two eyes … and that ‘Gaudi is god’!

Across the temple is a park, and in the park is a free flamenco concert by two of the most beautiful spirited people I’ve ever met … and I can see this in their eyes … in the way the girl’s face lights up when she is playing percussions, or singing … the way the man is consumed by his guitar and the music … the way he looks at her and she looks at him … Sigh!


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